Things are getting sooo stressful at school. And it's not just school work it is everything and it usually ends up with my crying into a pillow and Nick rubbing my back. I wish I could figure out how not to let things get to me. If I could do that I wouldn't be constantly fighting back tears.
I guess it all starts with my tire. I have a nail in the shoulder of my tire, a place where nobody will fix it, or try to fix it. So after fighting for an hour on the phone with my father about it he finally believed me that I need a new tire. When I try to tell people something, they don't believe me, but when Nick says anything everyone believes him. So Nick and I attempted to go on Saturday morning to buy a new tire, my father says to buy used but Nick doesn't believe we'll find a used tire in good condition. So the fact that I have to fight with two different opinions, one living with me and one I'll have to live with when school is over. Well, Nick worked Friday night at the ambulance, so he didn't get much sleep and I was woken up at 1:30 am with an incident (I'll mention this later). We didn't wake up until late and by then I didn't care where we went, I just wanted a tire and to be done with it. Of course all the places close at noon on Saturday, so I didn't end up getting the tire. Then I had to explain to my father why I didn't have the tire, and sleeping in wasn't really the excuse I wanted to give him. So I have to call places tomorrow to get a price quote and see if they have the tire in stock. Hopefully somebody does, because I'll most likely go to them so that I can just be done with this whole situation.
One of my other stressful situations is my residents. Being an RA somewhat sucks because they are supposed to be able to come to me for everything. I just don't like when they come to me at 1:30 in the morning when they could have handled the situation themselves. Only they didn't handle the situation in a civilized manner and made it more of an issue than it needed to be. Both parties were in the wrong, in my opinion. A group of girls came in around 1:15 am and were being very loud. I was asleep so this is all from what I heard and concluded from what both sides told me. I guess the one group of girls was so loud that they woke another girl up. She was angry because she was woken up and, well decided to voice her opinion on the matter. From what I was told, she yelled down the hall for them to be quiet, and when they didn't quiet down she came pounding on my door. I believe that instead of yelling down the hall for them to be quiet they should have gone to their door and asked them in a civilized manner, like another resident did. I also believe that the ones being loud should be courteous to other people on the floor and respect the twenty-four hour courteous hours, even if isn't technically quiet hours. I think that if everyone could have just respected each other, they wouldn't have had to wake me up. It also didn't help that afterwards I couldn't fall asleep because I was afraid the one room was going to come pounding on my door because they didn't quiet down and that I was a shitty RA. I know I shouldn't care about what people think of me, and I really don't, but I don't want people to think that I am horrible at my job. I guess I somewhat care about what people think of me, I do want people to like me and I try to make it so people like me, but I realize that not everyone is going to like me.
The final thing, besides schoolwork, is Student Association Senate. A lot of it is because of certain biases I have towards certain organizations that other people have the opposite biases for. Mostly it has to do with the ambulance corp on campus. I support it but a lot of people in powerful positions don't. I don't want to be accused of having bias because I'm dating and am friends with many people of the ambulance corps. Today, for example there was an issue with the charter. It said that they provide a free service, which they no longer do. But technically when the charter was written the service was still free. But according to the finance director that is not true. Charging for the service has totally messed up the whole organization because people in need of medical help are denying transport because they believe they have to pay out of their own pocket for the ride to the hospital, when it is really their health insurance will be charged. Personally I believe that they should keep it a free service and give more money to the ambulance corps because they provide a valuable service to the campus, not only in the health and safety area, but in community service and leadership opportunities it offers. I think it is stupid that there is so much politics within something that is so helpful to the campus. I just don't want to get accused of bias. I wish that I could just resign my position and not have to worry about the politics on the college campus.
I just want my semester to be over. But then the money issue will come up again and I'll be stressed all over again. I just want to sleep.
23:41 - 12-03-06
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